Plugging away....

Nothing has been "normal" this year.

Is that good? Well, depends on when you ask me. Life was definitely more simple having a regular 9 - 5 at my former company. I had what I would consider a stable position. I had professional respect and good seniority, so by all means, I had what many would consider a dream position. I had a room with a view of the ocean for goodness sakes!

But over the past 3 or 4 years there, I had definitely felt......bored? I suppose that's the thing.

I woke up one day and thought to myself, "What is my purpose in life...is this all there is?". I wake up. I go to work. I go home. I sleep. I wake up. I go to work. I go home. I sleep.

Rinse and repeat. I was there for EIGHT years!! So that's somewhat in the ballpark of 2920 (minus the weekends) where I repeated that pattern. HOLY SHIT!!! Then I thought to myself...where am I? Am I better off now 8 years later? I didn't own my own home (prices in Hawaii are ridiculous, but that's another story), I didn't have any solid relationships with someone special, and I had nothing set aside for retirement.

Life was just TOO routine and I was treading water. Perhaps I wasn't taking the risks necessary to move ahead like some of the other friends I knew who were more aggressive then me. I can see how successful they have become....

Now here I am, I TOOK huge risks this year and now let's see what I'm made of. I don't think I'm any closer to owning a house in Hawaii as prices are constantly rising, but at least I got on eye on the market and I think if I work hard, I'll get that accomplished.

I can't say I have any girlfriend yet....but these past two years have been quite interesting in that area because I've actually open my eyes to taking some risks. I've met people who have become very special to me. It's been up and down in this area...I've been extremely happy these past two years, but I've also been very hurt as well. It comes with the territory.

My last goal? Retirement.... well, it's getting there. With the help of loved ones I managed to stash some money away for retirement and at least start that process of building for my future. It's not a whole lot. But it's something, and I'm proud of that.

I can't say I'm totally comfortable with this situation now that I'm on my own. Nothing is ever the same each day. But at least life is more interesting now.................