Chaos

It's a little weird living this way....

One day to the next I really don't know what's going to happen and how I'm going to feel.

While I really think this is a period I've been waiting for my whole life, I get occasional panic attacks that just throws me. Can I do this? Where is my next paycheck coming from? If I can't handle this next Project...who can help?

One minute I can feel like like the most confident person in the world. The next minute I'd be cowering on my bed wondering what I got myself into.

I suppose this is how all new business owners feel? I'm not sure about that....there's GOT to be people out there who can jump into a situation like this and feel absolutely no regret and no fear of what might happen 1 month, 1 year, 10 years away...

Best thing I can do is keep climbing.

At least my business has got some forward momentum going for it. I've been lucky enough to have some clients who have remained my friends...with the intention to stick it out with me. I'm ever grateful for their trust. I DO have some leads through word-of-mouth, so I got some potential income out there....but I've learned long ago in this business not to celebrate until I got money in hand.

People are fickle. They can like you one day, they can hate you the next.

Keep climbing....keep reaching.