Bye Grandma

My grandmother passed away today. She was my "Ma Ma"...chinese title for my paternal grandmother. She was 94.

I'm not sure how I feel about it. I never knew my Ma Ma too well. Having grown up apart from my father's family here in Hawaii all my life, I must have spoken less then one full conversation with her my whole life. I may have only been in her company less then a few hours if you add all the dinners we've had cumulatively.

But I still loved her. As I did my grandfather, who passed away some 4 or 5 years ago as well. They are where I came from.... they are a part of my history.

While I'm not breaking down in grief, I still think they deserve mention and recognition.

My Ma Ma was a tough person. Even into her 90's she was still a strong & positive person towards the people around her. I admired that. She laughed a genuine laugh. I could tell that just in the little times I've spent with her.

The last time I had dinner with her was maybe 4 years ago... she told a joke (can't remember what it was) and everyone laughed. Can you imagine that? 90 year old comedian. I was proud of her.

As far as she was away from me...as distant as she was. I hope she somehow knew she was an inpiration for me. May I always be as strong & happy as she was.

I never got to say goodbye. But I will sit here remembering her. Love you Grandma.