Painful project

I've been helping a friend of mine with a project for one of his clients. He's been a little overbooked with work and so I'm just helping him with the overflow. Figured I owed him a favor anyway.

So this site is a template site... what a pain in the ass!! The problem is that it's set to do things only a certain way and it's taken me more time figuring out this system then I would have just designing a site for her from scratch. Bah, whatever.... I guess I'll just plug away at it. But at this point I have to put that in the backburner for now and concentrate on my own clients.

I've been thinking of my "relationship" with my long distance girl right now. What do you CALL this kind of relationship? We're not really together...yet we DO care for each other. We haven't really committed ourselves to each other, but yet we care enough to feel saddened if we heard that the other were to be dating someone else. What is this? Just "special" friends?

I suppose that is all we are. I'm kind of stuck in this wild whirlwind in my head....she's at once the best thing in my life right now, but yet she seems like such a distant destination. All at once I feel like she raises me upon the highest mountain, but at the same time I'm purposely pushing myself down a bit to protect myself from the possible fall. I feel it's unfair to her.

She's probably feeling the same things.

I guess all I can be is hopeful and be happy for the moments. That's what she tells me...and she's always right. So far...