Ball of nerves

I had to give a presentation today. I hadn't done one of these in a while I was a wreck all weekend. It turned out ok...I think my weeks of practice in my BNI meetings helped.

There's something about having to sell your own work that makes the situation very nerve-wracking and vulnerable. I used to have people tell me my work is all that great and what-not, but I have never been super happy with my own work. I hear that's natural though... a book I'm reading lately says that an artist that is completely happy with his own work is not pushing forward. Well, if that's the case I'm PUSHING baby!

Hmmm....that doesn't sound right. Whatever....

I managed to eek my way through the experience. I think I did alright. I give myself a B+ for the presentation. I notice when I'm nervous I either ramble on incoherantly, I stutter a bit, and sometimes I lose my train of thought. I'd be talking and then realize, "What the hell am I talking about?"

Today I didn't stumble around TOO much. I had practiced all weekend. I may have missed one or two points I had planned to mention, but the pacing was good and the mood was pretty calm and light. I think it went alright...now I just have to sit and hope I get the project.

I haven't really started wedding planning yet. Should I be worried? My girl is leaving it all up to me. She thinks it's all easy...maybe something we can do maybe just 3 or 4 months ahead. Somehow I've seen my friends get married and they were freaking out a year ahead.... so am I supposed to be worried now too?! Well, if she's not worried I'll try not to be worried. She better not complain if the only wedding dresses available at the time makes her look like Shrek. Our cake is going to come from Zippy's bakery, our flowers from a downtown lei stand, and our music will be my collection of Parliament's Greatest Hits. "Get up for the downstroke"

OH boy....I think I'm worried.