Pressure

I'm definitely feeling the pressure of everything going on around me.

The funny thing is that while it is a period in my life where I feel the most overwhelmed with my personal life, it now seems like I'm getting the most contact with friends & family who need my help as well.

I have to help my parents with potential home renovations, and friends involved in crazy relationships...ranging from crazy love triangles to bad marriages. All of which I feel ill equipped to deal with. Sometimes I sit there listening to the details that I'm given and I wonder "why are you asking me? I've never been in that situation" While as a friend and family member I'm happy to give help, I'm certainly feeling the extra weight on my shoulders as I'm still trying to tackle everything from my own business matters to the affairs of my upcomming wedding.

Maybe that's why my body has been in knots lately and my temper has been so short. I almost lost it last week when a little old lady gave me a funny look at a 4 way stop and she didn't get the right of way from me. She did the whole drive-by stare at me and I felt my temperature boil. "OH NO YOU DIDN'T!", I thought to myself.

No, I didn't do anything but it sure would have felt good to go yell at someone, even if it was a tiny old lady with big black sunglasses in a gold buick regal.

If it isn't one thing with the wedding planning it's another. Now I'm getting all worked up over my fiancee's immigration issues. I'm getting conflicting feedback, while on one hand I have my mom's lawyer friend say it's "easy", it's so unnerving to hear the horror stories about immigration problems online.

I can decide to pay an immigration lawyer to do it, but they don't come cheap.

Bottom line is that the US immigration office doesn't care less that you have wedding plans and you want to see each other. You have to follow their rules, and more often then not, you're guilty until proven innocent because about 40% of their cases are fraudulent marriages. So they're going to go through our stuff with a fine tooth comb looking for problems.

SIGH. I definitely feel like this guy today (courtesy of CuteOverload):