Posted by Raphael on Nov 18, 2009 in My Business Adventures, Personal, Rants | 0 comments

It’s been a slower month. It’s a little scary. Not because I haven’t had slow months before, but even after 4.5 years of business, I still panic when there’s a change in activity.

I keep thinking, “Is this it? Is this the big ‘recession’ everyone keeps talking about?” That kind of thinking can be bad for a small business owner like myself. I think some part of business is a self-fulfilling prophecy so as soon as such a thought comes up I try to rail back.

It’s not always easy though. Yesterday I snapped at my wife. I was like, “Hey, do I have to do this all alone?”

Of course she had no answer. I mean, how can she? I’ve been running this business on my own how can she suddenly have input to help? I quickly realized how foolish it was of me to even ask.

It does get lonely sometimes making all your own decisions about the business. When it’s doing well, it’s one of the best feelings in the world “Yeah! I did this all myself sucka!”

But when things go wrong sometimes, there’s nobody to lean on but yourself. There’s nobody to blame, nobody to pick up your mistakes or to offer different perspectives. It’s a big wake up call. I don’t think there’s any easy solution to resolve this.  Maybe going out there to network with other business owners going through the same situation helps a little…

On a positive note (see? railing back already), historically whenever I get into panic mode over the last few years, something always falls on my lap in the right time and place and I’m all good again.

I just gotta trust the mojo!